I Know That's Right

Well as i said the other day, I started my Clease, the body cleanse part that is. I don't know what is the matter with me.... The mental part kind of stumped me a  bit. I think it was a combo of fear, and fear. But i know like most of us know that living in fear never get's us any where. Becasue it's has me stuck in the past and not living in the moment. Got damn it girl get it together!!!!. So with that being said, I am going to start again fresh in the morning. I will get up at 5. I will spend 10 minutes in prayer, and then begin my days lessons.  Wish me luck world, I'm going in again. I might have some fears, but shoo... I had three kids, if that didn't kill me, this won't either!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish me luck,

Sakina

Hello World. Tomorow I will begin my journey to healing my soul, mind, and body. I am scared shitless!!!  I have never done anything like this before. I don't know what to expect, I have no idea what I will uncover. I like most people, have buried things, and have hid things, and just don't want to remember a whole lot of shit!!!

With that being said, I know that this journey of self discovery will change my life. I can feel it. Not that my life is crap or anything.  But like most of us, I need a change. I need to find my passion. My reason for being. Yes, I am a mother, and Oh my goodness, I love my children. But this is bigger then them. Heck it's bigger then who i think I am right now.

This is going to bring me closer to myself, and most importantly, closer to God.Yeah I said it, closer to God. For those of us who believe in God, it's something we all strive for, long for, and search for all of our lives. I mean what do I have to lose really? A few pounds... shooot I am tryin to do that anyway! LOL

I would love to invite you all to follow me on my trip. There may be tears, and hunger pains, and a few not nice words, but at the end of it. I think I will come out on the other side a better Woman, Mother, and all around Child of God.

So here goes nothing, or hey maybe everything....

Sakina